| Francis Daniel Zhang Zhaoyi a.k.a Sh'i-Lah |

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Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Too little things have been happening in my life worth blogging. soon i'll have too many things to blog about but u still wouldn't see me updating my blog regularly as by that time? i'd have too little time to spend on a comp much less internet. and even less blog.

Haha, it's a little island off the main shores of Singapura called Tekong Resort. going there on a holiday. might end up over staying the welcome and be there for 9mths? before i come back perm to Singapura.

Going to miss ALL my toys(Oakleys, Nissan Presea, Computer, Guitar, stuffed toys), Friends, BED+Air-Con! haha i seriously think that'd be the main think i'll miss if the weather holds up like that when i enter. excruciatingly HOT! *sizzle*

haha, hope i dun injure my body during training. i doubt it do me any good, and ALOT of bad. haha, juz wish i'd realise it's time for me to raise the white flag when my body breaks down and not AFTER. haha, i've always had this head-strong psychopath mentality. I WILL GET WHAT I WANT! (unless my mind tells me i no longer want them... haha)

SicNarF
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6/29/2005 09:50:00 pm

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Thursday, June 23, 2005

I was asked this question in camp today: "When's your turn to get a gf?" haha if it was that easy for me to get one would i have chosen to walk this path alone and "unloved". hehe, well well then again to console myself oh so often i've been in self-denial that girls are nothing but trouble.

Quote:"U never listen to my advice... women are nothing but trouble... Stay away from them... Evil things they are" hahaha

I'm nothing but a sensitive emotionally unstable creature. everything is a possible fear for me. i don't venture out to try things that i am not sure if i can succeed at it. if i know i'll lose, most of the time i don't even try then. i love having straight wins on my records. hmm... then again i wonder why my acad grades are so crappy. ah... maybe they're entirely different hehe.

Another problem is that i expect too much out of a girl. there are girls who've approached me, hint or str up. but somehow... just no feelings... hehe, afraid to try.

Weak i was, Weak i shall remain to be
Till the hr comes forth to take away my fears.
To lose everything is to have the chance to gain everything.

SicNarF
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6/23/2005 10:34:00 pm

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Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Yst weather was absolutely marvelous. no blazing sun nor excruciating hot air. which i believe helped to shorten my 5km run timing to 27.30! the other factor would deff be because steven was running with me. he kept egging me on and seemed to know when i wanted to stop and motivated me to go on just before my tyre ran flat.

today i'm on office duty again. wonder what time it'll end this time rnd. last one was a "chop chop" one and i could go home 30min later than usual. hehe. thur i think i would try running in the stadium tracks to see if my 2.4 has improved? haha

My push ups at the current i've managed to do 3sets of 20 with 1min intervals. i want 100 at one shot again! felt so weak when i couldn't even do 50... Argh!

SicNarF
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6/22/2005 06:04:00 am

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Thursday, June 16, 2005

Last night went over to Debbie's Chalet/Party. drink up drink up. X.O and whiskey, good choices. haha, had 3cups of X.O and i was dozing off to slp as usual. have to stop this smoking and drink binge when i'm not doing so well in my life. ambitious plans i have, nothing i can do to achieve them at the same time. how am i to go on lying to myself that i'll be happy being a sergt? when the sky is Officers? Body is weak, Mind is soft, Attitude is rotten. If those are the traits of an officer, then i'm deff in. But, they're NOT! haha

today camp had a "change of command" parade. so was adviced against driving to camp. very well, take the public transport as i did before i owned a car. no big deal. so i thought... the wait for bus, the squizzing, the spoilt air-con was the bad points. on the gd side? i get to bump into loads of friends. haha, i'm blessed to have many ppl who make my day happy by reminding me i'm not forgotten. but still! i miss my car, even though it's just one day... when you're tired from a long day at work, u just JUST wanna get home and chill. haha

SicNarF
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6/16/2005 09:43:00 pm

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Sunday, June 12, 2005

yst went out in the afternoon with leslie. makan! haha ate minced meat noodles. the best in s'pore! haha lavender mrt station close by. the noodles had a unique tang to it, the ingredients used were truely top of their line. but the down side for all the good stuff? a bowl cost $5 and a hefty 45min wait. haha but it was all worth it from the first strand to its last.

next up was a short walk over to beach rd army mkt to look see look see. jalan jalan over to arab street. had a iced mint tea and a smoke of sesha. love the tobacco taste that lingers in the mouth and nose. haha, oops! sat there for a long long time before moving to our main attraction for the day. sheares technology shop, it's a place for boys to buy man toys. haha they sell military equipment as well as knives. knives range from kabar, SOG, Al Mar, Ocean Masters and many many more! woot!!! so tempting man! $130+- for one i'm interested in. haha i WANT!!!

Another toy i'd really like to have would be a bluetooth handsfree for my phone. cost is about $105. but then i'm battling to try to convince myself i don't need it. haha what good would bluetooth do me? i dun even chat much on the phone. i think its just the lure of gadgets i have. same goes to the SOG knive i'm dying to lay my hands on.

on a better note? i think i might go do up my cars sound system. maybe change the HU and speakers. that should set me back by about $500? haha all the things i want are all so pricey... and every other mth i just one something else. haha how to save money like that?!

Well well, BMT's coming. hope i can save abit more money while i'm stuck on that island. *crosses fingers*

SicNarF
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6/12/2005 10:39:00 pm

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Thursday, June 09, 2005

Yo Yoz! 28:39 for 5km. keep going down down down... haha, but i think my body still not conditioned yet. left knee and right ankle giving me the jimmies again. creak creak creak, feels like a lousy maintained hinge. haha

1more mth to BMT! can't wait! yst checked out the payslip as suggested by ppl in the office. haha not to the mark i was looking for man... felt cheated of close to 1k? hahaha, but i was reassured by patrick who called to check with finance. back paid ltr when confirm i have diploma. but haven't i already send my "congratulation u have achieved diploma" letter to that kuku kenneth? oh well...

7jun attended a wedding anniversary. their 25th yr together. haah happening party man. driinks, dancing, eurasian girls. hahaha even the 40-50 yr olds were like drinking to the max man. haha since i had to work the next day, i chose to drive there (excuse not to drink) haha, those guys can be quite pursuasive. haah PARTY!

SicNarF
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6/09/2005 06:16:00 am

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Monday, June 06, 2005

Hey hey! Shag? Shag. SHAG!!! haha, fri early morning went to work. then str away went back to st pat's after army. it's that time of the yr again. PLTC!!! Katong District. haha, for those who are lost? PLTC is a scouts camp which trains boys to be future patrol leaders.

Was rather lost when i arrived as no role was given to me due to the fact i couldn't commit, i didn't know when i was entering tekong back then when planning was in progress. by the first night, i was their asst. sub camp chief. then somehow or rather, i became a driver. hahahaha! drove a van for the first time. was great man. easier to drive and est turning. bottom line? was an thrilling experience.

Tired as hell, clocked bout 250km within the first 24hrs. haha, so cool vroom vroom vroom. haha. mon morning when i finally drove my darling again... i nearly forgotten how to drive her... van i half-clutch it moves already, my presea i still have to step acce else it dies. coming to comfort and speed? haha presea out-classes the van anytime.

No more despatch for me now. haha so cool! now to fight fatigue and falling aslp during office hrs. haha.

SicNarF
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6/06/2005 08:13:00 pm

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Thursday, June 02, 2005

today was rather a lazy day for me. first day doing office duty. for once since a long time i got to stay in office! woot! but i also miss the great time i have spent on the rds doing desptach. trying to appreciate both jobs. Reminder: "If u love your job, u'll never have to work another day" hehe WONDERFUL!

This morning witnessed my first accident on the rd up close. was driving to work, then a taxi bumped into another. wah nearly cut into my lane while i was at 60km/hr, immediately i was fully awake. haha, *snap* juz like that, the droziness of mornings flee away.

Tmr comes the closing of another week. going to spend the weekend with my boys... shit my uniform haven't iron yet... crap. Scouts having PLTC at my sch, fri to mon. going to drop by after work tmr and go to work mon morn? hahaha see my mood how.

SicNarF
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6/02/2005 08:35:00 pm

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