| Francis Daniel Zhang Zhaoyi a.k.a Sh'i-Lah |

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Wednesday, November 30, 2005

it's going to be christmas time again! haha, used to be really hyped out about this biggie event where ppl meet up, dressed up and partied till the cows go out.and wake up only when its time for the cows to come home. haha. i think this yr it can't happen that brilliant way anymore. in fact i'm not even sure what life holds ahead for me next week needless to say in a months time. wish that give like a whole week off. haha, Christmas till after New Yr. haha dreaming dreaming

Come friday morning, i'll be reporting in for my ASLC course and it'll be time for training to begin again. it was a really enjoyable 2weeks where we were really slack and bummed our time away in camp. This time the course will be held at pasir lebah camp where its like really really far from home. there's going to be alot of journey time... and worst part is the intructors mentioned that pasir lebah camp is really strict with security, means no camera phones and worst of all? no MP3 Players!!! how then can i pass my time while travelling to and fro SISPEC?! Argh!!! only time will tell... Luckily i already invested in a non-cam phone during the start of BSLC. so the cam phone part is settled.

Going to receive my Green Beret. haha, so exciting! seasoning it under all my books now. Hope i season it properly. haha i've seen some pretty ugly images of ppl who wore unseasoned berets! Ugh.... haha. Image conscious in army, what-ever-for? i'm wondering myself.

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11/30/2005 04:59:00 pm

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Monday, November 28, 2005

finally a corporal. the last weeks of BSLC was really relaxed. most of the days were spent stoning and waiting for things to happen. the rainy season also gave us some pretty long breaks where we'd wait in bunk for the "cat1" to lift.

Christmas is approaching! and at a very fast rate. haven't began shopping for my own things much less other ppl's. haha, christmas is the so called season for giving and receiving. 20 times of christmas i've witnessed and each and every one of them i've always enjoyed taking more than giving. HAHA, why i save so much $$ also i can't explain.

Hmm... i used to despise those ppl who only come to church during christmas and never be seen on normal sundays again. and now i have grown into something that i hated. why has this been happening? because i have and still am losing faith in this religion. lost the "family" touch and feeling it used to have. recognition, seems so impt to me.

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11/28/2005 08:43:00 am

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Sunday, November 20, 2005

went out with the usual suspects the pass few days of "freedom", saw some old friends here and there while i was displaying myself in public so that ppl don't forget that i'm still alive. feels great to go window shopping again. haha, i've been walking arnd looking at long sleeve shirts i could get for christmas. few of the choices i've gathered so far are pierre cardin, thomas smith, timberland. think i'll get the one from timder's since i don't have any of their clothing line as of yet.

26Dec, pandora's entertainment throwing a party @ Gotham's Penthouse. My Guards buddy birthday party happening on 26Dec already agreed to go down after we book out to party at his place. My BEST bud Ashley since days of church also throwing a party on the 26, which i deffinitely will show up. so how? 3 events in one night. HAHA, suddenly feeling so wanted again. after days of solitism hiding on this island on tekong. thought i was forgotten by all since i don't get much SMS from human beings. :D

Feels great to be home. feels great to be earning money. feels even better to be spending it wisely. i love my 19"LCD monitor. haha, its big enough for blind ppl like me to view. now next stop for toys to get would be to sheares tech where they supply gd quality overseas military equipment and knives. oh yeah...

going to pass out as a corporal. see my BSLC buddy going to OCS. see my Scout senior in Pilot program. see my BMT sect mate in OCS... makes me want to be an officer. haha, once again hagging bout the same twisty problems in my life. wanting the best but not good enough to get them.

SicNarF
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11/20/2005 01:56:00 pm

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Saturday, November 19, 2005

zoom zoom zoom, 2weeks of confinement is over, again... haha. infact, its so fast paced that hey, i'm going to pass out as a corporal next week already. Cheers! another 3mths later and i'd be a sergeant going for GUARDS conversion. and then... and then i'll be what i wanted to become. a GUARDSMEN.

Ex. nutcracker the defensive exercise where SISPEC ppl learn to dig holes. haha, spent bout 1.5 nights digging on 2 stupid holes, a shell scrape and a fire trench. dug finish the holes only to be told to cover them upas it was time to pack up and go home. hell, no one completed. me and my buddy's "grave" was one of the more complete ones. haha

COC Parade was a one day affair where we relaxed one corner and chilled out from the nutcracker and prepared for grandslam. it was a complete waste of time as we watched the outgoing CO leave and the new one arrive. i was tasked to stand by the road side to wave gd bye and clap hello. haha! calafarre. but hey, all thanks to these retarded things, my next exercise was cut one day short! from 3D2N reduced to 2D1N. HAPPY! haha

grandslam was just carrying out missions for 2 days. doing harbouring where i laid down in prone position and slpt my time away.they picked a wonderful sport for me where i was far far away from any of the commanders, meaning free and easy sleeping. haha no one to come over and disturb me or check if i was awake and watching the front. haha during the missions once again i felt the frustration when a "leader" does not know how to navigate and got us lost. back tracking and walking additional distances was deffinitely not on my "want-to-do" list. oh well, shit happens.

live firing was the last obstacle to face charlie coy before we could all book out and say sayonara to tekong and head back to S'pore. i spent more time wating then doing anything... as usual SAF policy applies, rush to wait, wait to rush. got back to company line at 3am in the morning, cleaned rifle till 4.30 and rushed to pack up and book out by 7! WOOT! and here i am back on the bigger island.

my buddy was chosen to be one of the 2 running candidates for Platoon Best and a chance to cross over to OCS. i belief he truely has the qualities of being a good officer. the other guy? the ultimate WAYANG KING. haha and he got in. well i must say he has some good abilities, but hey at the rate he WAYANGS? haha i didn't really like him. he so enjoys trying to lead us and when given the slightest power, he'll greatly enjoy abusing it to show off to the commanders he can get things done at the expense of shouting at us, making empty promises to try to motivate us and all the other shit. haha.

seriously? of course i feel jealousy inside and maybe even show it outside. i'd really like to cross over to OCS. but too bad. i'm not allowed to. maybe my chance would truely come one day... maybe... one day... hahaha step by step then. ONE MORE WEEK TO CORPORAL RANK!

SicNarF
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11/19/2005 05:27:00 pm

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Saturday, November 05, 2005

Booked out again today! was so looking forward to this book out thru the 2days in camp only to be hit by a bomb-shell this morning. my happiness was short-lived with the announcement of being on guard duty on sunday. haha!

that means i gotta go back to camp to slp tonight, go on duty 24hrs tmr. and that would be followed by "assessment" exercises! i would n't be booking out again for 2weeks... haha, this is the kind of life i signed up for. always ready... ready to strike! hahahaha.

btw, i love my 19" LCD monitor. haha it makes viewing DVD's and movies so much more enjoyable. haha, of course... when u spend like $500? u'd expect that kind of satisfaction to be achieved.

At this young age, i'm already starting to understand why elders always tell young ones that earning money isn't everything... how true. what point would it have to earn to much money yet not be able to enjoy it. like me! haha, so ok, i bought new toys but i don't get much time to play with them. feelings really crappy. the saying "so near yet so far" doens't really apply... it's more like "i'm there, yet it's so far away."

HAHA, ok ok. going to make the best of my time and go play with my guitar. oh how i miss playing with it. how i miss the band i was with. the late nights we have spent jamming... eating at the "kopi-tiam" and not to mention partying at each others house. drinking dead drunk!

SicNarF
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11/05/2005 04:37:00 pm

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Wednesday, November 02, 2005

my hrs are numbererd... days zoomed by and now i have less than 24hrs to enjoy freedom before i'm hulled back to that island.

i wouldn't say i've wasted my time this holiday as i've kept myself busy doing productive things. met up with a number of my goodie friends, but still not all... timings always clash... when i'm free, others might not be.

Blew $515 to buy a new 19"LCD screen and a 16X DVD ROM. all to add entertainment value to my computer. i realised that i wanted a bigger screen on the sat night when i first came out. Muahaha! it feels so good to have the spending power. now i'm juz trying to console myself that it was money well spent... Yeah right...

Btw, i'm a still dreaming bout an mp3 player... y i decided to splurge on a LCD rather than that trendy IPOD? because i weighed the odds of how much entertainment value it can put into my life and i realised... when i book out i stayed home and watched DVD's more than go out on the streets listening to MP3.

All in all? i think all these are luxury items which i could actually do without. haha, but then again, i only live a 20yr old life once. :D

SicNarF
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11/02/2005 11:08:00 pm

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